And it hurt a bit, actually. I’m fine by the way just so you’re aware and don’t start sending paramedics to my house. This blog however really isn’t. It’s not exactly one thing either that’s wrong but a couple of little things. Most of these problems came from me, not the layout, so let’s start there.
I make problems. I’ve always looked at things and seen problems. Everywhere. My brother wants an iPod for christmas because his old one has a busted button or something. I don’t know all the details but he wants a new one.
After he spent $700 on speakers and at least $250 more on headphones. Ignoring the fact that he has a laptop which stores music and he’s hijacked my portable CD player and he has way more CDs than anyone ever needs.
For some reason this bothers me and my brain has convinced me to try to show him the error of his ways. I know he hasn’t done anything wrong and it doesn’t effect me in the slightest but I know it’s happening and it’s so stupid. He’s not solving any problems and he’s just spending more money.
I wanted a TV. I don’t need it that’s true. We have 3 TVs in the house already. But only one of them is HD and I like HD games. I can’t play my 360 on it at night when my parents watch TV because well… I kind of owe them that much. So there’s a problem here that I can’t play the HD games that I want. Normally the other accessible TV is used by one of my brothers to play their games. So I can’t use that TV either anyway.
Getting a TV saves me from having to argue with my brothers and allows me to play my games and still let Mum and Dad do their thing. Problem solved. Awesome. The iPod is solving the problem of “I have a broken iPod”. I haven’t ever seen a scenario where he would use the damn thing other than road trips and they happen rarely enough it barely classifies as a problem. It’s not even an inconvenience because he can play his myriad of CDs in the cars CD player.
I can’t let this go and I know I should but it’s genuinely bothering me. I have no god damn idea why. I wish I could leave problems like this alone. I really do. Mum uses a device that doesn’t offer her the same freedom but is happy with it. My youngest brother plays soccer video games when the real thing is probably better for him if he wants to get better (I know he does). My friend played Evil in Dungeons and Dragons, which is a fantasy game where you can do whatever you like, but lacked the imagination to be truly evil.
I just can’t leave a problem alone and all these little things that have no impact on me rattle around inside my head. It’s really starting to bother me that I can’t just let these things go. I’m just glad I can write things down. Somewhere. Even if this is public.
Maybe this Dacria’s Deficits thing will have to become a multi pager. We’ll see. Another problem to consider.
The next week should be good to take my mind off things. I’m going to my uncles farm for close to seven days. I’ll be disconnected from the internet and forced to communicate and do things like read books. I completely forgot what book paper felt like until I was trying to pick my books for this trip.
Long story short, don’t expect an update anytime soon.